It Is All Allah's Will (Updated 30th April 2008 The Final Updte)

My daughters condition took a turn for theworse yesterday when she started bleeding heavily. The earlier premise that the cancer had subsided when the doctors doing the staging saw it fit to remark that the tumour was almost normal. That gave us some false hope that the cancer was responding to the alternative medication that my daughter was religiously taking.

The bleeding was detected around Isyak and without further ado we made preparation for her to go to the hospital. Professor Dr. Nik Mohamad Zaki, the doctor who will lead the team of sugeons operating on my daughter had told Azura that she must go to the hospital immediately if she bleeds after being discharged from the hospital.

While on the way, she called Dr, Nik Mohamad Zaki to ask for his opinion and was immediately told to go to HUSM. By the time we reached there it was almost midnight. At the emergency registration we saw so many other cases that made us feel lucky not to be aflicted with their kind of ailment. An old man came in with breathing problem due to an attack of athma, another young lady was wheeled in a stretcher with shallow breathing which the father said happens everytime she was stressed. The father and her was operating a restaurant. Another young slightly plump boy had a metal ring stuck on his ring finger. He must have wanted to wear a ring so much that he slipped on his finger a steel bicycle nut that went in but the swollen finger refused to let it out. The constriction on the blood vessels by the ring was starving the tissues beyond the ring of much needed oxygen swelling it up.

At that graveyard shift, I wonder how the doctors and supporting staff can keep their eyes open and their mental faculty working. I really salute them.

Since the bleeding itself wasnt life threatening, they took care of those who needs attention earliest. By the time my daughter's was seen by the young lady doctor it was already past 1 am. later she was admitted to the ward to be observed until the next day when the senior gynaecologist will have a look at her.

The next morning she called home that she had been examined and it was confirmed that the bleeding wa from the tumour. That alone dispelled any notion that we had that the bleeding could come from her period though it was definitely unlikely as she had just given birth only a month ago and had been breast feeding the baby.

We rushed over to the hospital to see her being given blood transfusion to replace the lost blood due to the bleeding. This time she couldnt have the comfort of the executive ward due to the need for constant supervision by the burses and the doctors. My wife and me left for home to get some equipments that Azura need badly that is the breast pump. Not feeding the baby from the mothers milk was making her endure a certain amount of discomfort and even pain.

Another phone call from her was really discomforting. She was feeling that her eyeballs were bulging out after the blood transfusion was done. Her body seems to be rejecting the blood!

By the time we reached the hospital the transfusion was stopped and she was put on drip instead. She had felt better pertsining to the swelling of the eye balls and her bleeding had reduced substantially.

While I was with Azura at the ward I received a SMS from Mazlan aka Gurindam Jiwa. He told me he was around HUSM at that time. I replied telling him of my location at the Baiduri Ward and he said he will come down after visiting Kak Dah who was warded at Wad 3 Utara in the old block. Kak Dah was the very reason for his being in HUSM that day. Read more of his postings about Kak Dah here, here and here.

Thanks to modern technology, the handphone helped us to locate and identify each other and we soon met at the entrance to my daughter's ward. Mazlan came with Fadli Che Lah the Personal Assitant to YB Tuan Haji Che Lah bin Mat Nawi. During the coverage of the 12 GE, Mazlan had requested that I provide some news about his friend Tuan Haji Che Lah as well as it was his close friend. I couldn't commit to that request despite the fact that Datuk Kamarudding Jaffar was an old classmate during the primary school days in Pasir Mas and covering both of them would be a great service to old friends. Though my coverage may not win them votes, it will somewhat stave the craving for news by their close friends who are not fortunate enough to be at site.
Mazlan came over to Azura's hospital bed and he told Azura about the seriousness of Kak Dah's case. The cancer recurred even after her doing mastectomy to both breasts after an attack of breast cancer.
Mazlan had other things to do and soon we had to part. We hugged as if we were two lost brothers. Now I am waiting for him to send me the pictures of the two of us at HUSM so that I can post it on this post. Mazlan, when you this post dont forget to email me the pictures.
It is all Allah's will that my daughter had to suffer this dreadful disease called cancer. We are not asking why must it be her. It is all fated. He wants to test us.
It is Allah's will that Mazlan and me got to meet today at HUSM despite my daughter had been discharged from her first stint at the wards. He wants us to meet and establish further the silaturrahim that we started on the net.

Mazlan aka Gurindam Jiwa after visiting my daughter at HUSM

28th April 2008

Azura was bleeding heavily. When the doctor on duty was notified, they immediately called the doctor on call to examine her. The bleeding seems to come from the point where they took the tissue sample for the second biopsis.

A decision was made to suture up the gap as it wasn't healing up. Azura went into the operating theatre at 3.30 PM and came out around 7.00 PM looking very pale with very low blood pressure due to heavy loss of blood. I told Azura that the brothers are on standby to donate their blood because the siblings blood is the most compatible and thus overcome the problem of rejection. Though I would readily donate my own blood, mine is useless due to my acute case of hypertension.

For the first time I saw tears welled up in Azura's eyes.

29th April 2008

Early this morning Azura's husband came back from Ipoh. After a short rest he proceeded to HUSM so that my wife Fatthiyah could return home to go to work at her school.

The point that they took the sample was where the bleeding came from. The bleeding seemed to have stopped after being sutured up in yesterdays operation in the operating theatre. Only two stiches was needed but the two hours they took to do it shows how difficult it was.

Today they gave her 2 pints of blood to replenish those lost through the heavy bleeding. There seems to be no more reaction like the first time. The pale look is gone from Azura's face and it now radiates more glow. Doc TA will be happy to hear that. It seems they have a way of preventing the rejection of transfused blood. Alhamdulillah I am happy too as when the actual op is done, Azura will need alot more blood to be replaced. It will not be good if rejection occurs.

Dr. Nik Mohd Zaki came to see Azura and Jo her husband. Lying in the next bed to Azura is the teeager who had undergone 2 operations previously. Between the two of then Dr. Nik Zaki spent 3 hrs there. Result day to reconfirm the Ca will be on 12th May 2008. Since Dr. Nik Zaki will be sending his daughter for matriculation studies somewhere around the 12th and he needs a few days to settle his personal matters. A small sacrifice on our part as we want him to be completely free of problem for him to work on Azura. A marathon 8 hrs operation is not something to be done when your mind is elsewhere.

The hospital's blood bank seems to have ample stock but will definitely welcome any blood donors to replenish their stock. My two sons will definitely be donating as they are regular donors.

30th April 2008

Azura called me to say that she will be discharged today and asked me to be at the hospital by 11.00 AM. Since the medical bill wont be much she prefered to pay the bill instead of waiting for the guaranttee letter from her employer which may take time.

I left the house early with her younger daughter Nur Farhana. On the way I stopped at Rozaimi Optometrist to change the lens of my bifocal which wasn't giving me much help for reading since the reading lens was rated at 175 when I first did it some ten years ago. Now I am so used to using the one with the power of 250. A short test confirmed this fact that I should be using the higher power. I bought another reading glasses to use before the new lens is ready on Saturday. The new lens and the reading galsses cost me some RM100.00.

Suddenly I remembered that I didn't feed any coins into the parking meter nor use the card to pay for the parking. I have a card with a stored value of RM30.00 in my wallet. On rushing out, I saw the red coloured piece of notice that I now will have to pay RM10 if the payment is effected within 14 days. Only last week I settled a similar compound when I fell asleep at the dental clinic while waiting for my turn and the 38 minutes on the meter was spent sleeping instead of being treated. The nurse at the clinic didn't want to disturb me from my sleep as they must have thought that this old man must be too tired to have fallen asleep under such a condition.

When I reached USM, I wanted to withdraw some money at the ATM. The Maybank ATM was out of order and there was a long queue at the Bank Islam's ATM. Then I decided to get the appraisal done first to find out how much the bill for the 3 days hospital stint for Azura. With only RM45.00 left in the wallet I was short of money and tried to pay via credit card whose stickers was clearly displayed on the window pane. Ah they will accept credit cards only if the payment exceeds RM101.00. So I proceeded to see Azura to get some money from her.

It was when I was passing the ward's counter that Dr. Najib asked me I knew that Dr. Hasanah went to see Azura. Since I have never met Dr. Hasanah, I didn't recognize her when we passed each other earlier. What a way to meet a new friend whom you have already known each other via the blogs for sometimes already.

Dr. Hasanah gave some encouraging words to Azura. Later she walked with us down to the ground floor. She showed me the herbal plants known locally as the 'lidah jin' at the hospital's herbal garden which is known to be a very good anti-oxidant. She helped me to take a few branches to plant at my house. The leaves can be blended with green apples and then the filtrate can be consumed to bring an overall wellbeing to aging or cancer suffering people.

Since nothing is expected to happen before the operation day by Professor Dr, Nik Mohd Zaki sometmes after the result day on the 12th of May 2008, this will be the last update on this blog.

Thank you all of you my good friends.