Tuesday, April 15, 2008

D Day (Final Update)

Azura posing with her family after the staging test. She was recuperating in the ward at HUSM

11.15 AM 15th April 08
Today is D Day. Azura has an appointment at 2.30 PM at the O & G Clinic Hospital University Sains Kubang Kerian Kota Bharu Kelantan. The biopsis result will be out today.We will know for sure whether the tumour is benign or malignant.
Earlier we had a call from the hospital. It was false alarm as the clinic thought that my daughter had an appointment on that day. The result wasn't known then and they didn't want her to go just yet. Azura had no other appointment other than today.
Unfortunately I have to look after the home turf while my wife Fatthiyah is still at school teaching. There are chores that I need to do at home so I can't tag along with her today. Anyway her husband Jo who took a few days leave from work is there to take her and be with her when the result is announced.
I will update this blog when I have the result.
Thank you for all the prayers my friends.

3.55 PM
My daughter is still at the hospital when I called her at 3.25 PM. The result is out. It is confirmed that the tumour is malignant. Its cancer but at an undetermined stage. The hospital will confirm the stage of the cancer on Monday. Until my daughter comes home, that is all the information that I have.
Ya Allah, kami terima penentuan mu. Segalanya adalah atas kehendak mu. Berikanlah anak hamba dan keluarga hamba kekuatan untuk menempuh dugaan mu. Kami akan berjuang untuk mengatasi dugaan ini.

16th April
After I have posted the result on my blogsite, Dr, Dzul (Tokasid) must have been the first few to read it. Doc TA immediately called me giving me encourahement and offered to let me have Raden Galoh's (Dalilah) number to call for support. Since I didnt have the lab report from USM, I informed Dr. Dzul to try and contact Dr. Ahmad Shukri Othman the senior O & G at USM who happened to be Pak Adib's brother in law. Infact Pak Adib had told me to seek Dr. Ahmad Shukri's help should I need it. Pak Adib purposely asked me to mention that I am his friend. I think Dr, Dzul got the report online from them.
Unfortunately at that time Azura's husband Jo was leaving for Ipoh where he has to work the next day (today) and their second daughter 6 yrs old Az was throwing a tantrum. I couldn't call Dalilah but she took the initiative to call me and I passed her call to Azura. It was imperative that Azura hears the word directly from Dalilah's mouth. Dalilah's personal fight with the same disease that attacked her breast is ongoing and her strength in fighting it must be emulated by Azura.
How heartwarming it was for me to have such frineds. I have met Dalilah at Kak Ton's MRT but I have yet to meet Dr. Dzul since I missed the most recent meet though I have promised him that we should meet at the earliest opportunity when he drops down into KL.
Soon after that I received words of encouragemnts from friends like Che'gu Nazir (kata tak nak), Eleena (Acciacatura), Dalilah (Raden Galoh), Kerp (lets wheel) who happened to have my numbers. I would like to apologize to them all for the late response due to time constrain.
The severity of my daughters case can be gleaned by Dr. Dzul's comment below which I am reproducing them here:
Innalillahi wa inna ilahi roji'un.I just read about the histopath result. I am sure everyone is devastated with the result but rest assure, there are ways for the Gynae team to tackle this problem. By Monday when the result is more precise they will tell the plan of action.The possibility is Azura might have to undergo A Radical hysterectomy. This is a delicate and long procedure( 7-8 hours) where the uterus,cervix,ovaries and surrounding lymphnodes will be removed. Most likely will be follow up by chemotherapy. It will be tedious for everyone.Azura and Jo needs to accept the reality of this situation fast.Of course there will be why her? questions asked.Assure her that this is all but an ujian on faith from ALLAH not only to her but to all your family.Tell her to be redha with this ujian.(Maybe you can e-mail or call Raden on how she handles the situation)I have seen a few Ca cervix when I was in the hospital. Most responded very well to the radical treatment. I am sure Azura will be the same.My du'a for Azura.For her to be patient during this ordeal.may ALLAH provide her comfort and iman during this stormy phase of her life.Ameen.
I am lucky to have such friends.

18th April

I made a mistake when I mentioned that Dr. Dzul (Tokasid)had read the biopsis report from HUSM. Actually he didnt have it and just inferred from the information he received from me. My apoogies to Dr. Zul.
Tomorrow 19th April Azura will be warded in HUSM to prepare for the staging test which will be carried on the 21st April. Then only what stage of the cancer will be decided. She will then be under the supervision of Dr. Nik who will lead the team of surgeons to remove the cancerous parts from her.

19th April 2008
Azura was admitted to HUSM to prepare her for the staging test on Monday. The doctor did a check on her tumour and they were surprised to find the tumour had shrunk in size. Above all there was no bleeding at all when they poked at it. There is hope for a less severe treatment waiting for her.
I will update later on the kind of alternative medication that she had consumed which we believe had brought about the reversal in size of the tumour
.
20th April 2008
Talked Azura on the phone today. She told me her tumour had shrunk from 2 inces to 2.5 com x 1.5 cm. My earlier understanding was that the tumour was 2.5 com was way off as it was actually almost 3 inches in diameter.
In the afternoon, we visited Azura at HUSM. She was in cheerful mood. I guess the knowledge that the tumour has reduced in size and change in colour brought instead of growing bigger has brought about this mood.
The Gynae clinic where she was warded earlier was cleared of all patients because it was to be used as an examination place for the students I presume. So the patients were placed in other wards temporarily. She herself was placed in Wad Baiduri. The aircond was not switched on but fortunately the room wasn't really hot. The many windows has definitely helped with the ventilation and kept the temperature down.

21 st April 2008
Allahhuakbar, Allahuakbar, Allahuakbar. Alhamdulillah. Thank you Allah. Sometimes you tend to believe miracles do happen. Earlier today Dr. Nik Zaki who will perform the tedious operation on Azura visited her Dr.Nik is the surgeon who leads team C to operate on Azura. He is considered by his fellow doctors to be very meticulous in his work. Dr. Nik personally explained to her briefly on the implication of the operation. Later Dr. Hasanah (Has is her call sign as a blogger) came to talk to her.
At approximately 1 PM she was wheeled into the Operating Theatre (OT) where the staging process will be done under semi anasthesized state (dunno if this term is correct) where half of her body will be sedated. She will be fully aware of the process only that she wont be able to see it herself.
Many doctors were inside the OT and she had the cheek to quip why are there so many doctors in the OT. I didn't really remember what was the reply but I presumed her case of reversed progression where the tumour reduced in size from around 3 inches long to 2.5 cm by 1.5 cm call for attention from all the medical fraternity in HUSM.
They were perplexed when they found at that the condition of the tumour was almost normal. This is what I considered as the miracle. Cancer cells dont react that way. The color changed too from the reddish to yellowish. So the positive cancerous diagnosis from the biopsis test was in doubt. They have to take another sample to test. Result will come out in 3 weeks time and only 3 weeks after the result will the operation to remove the tumour can be done.
The operation to remove the tumour will be limited to just the tumour and the immediate areas around it and not the whole reproductive system including the lumph nodes and the ovaries. There is hope that my daughter will continue to be a woman. Please don't ask me to explain what I mean to be a woman.
My friends, Allah must answered our prayers. We had not only muslims praying for my daughter's recovery but we had also people of others faiths doing it beside our own prayers. Thank you Allah and thank you my friends.Your support has willed Azura to be strong and consumed her taking of alternative medication religiously.
She had been taking Jelli Gamat and Lifestyle extra. Though I cant say for sure what helped her, I would consider the combination must have helped her with the will of Allah after the prayers offered by many friends. Dr. Zul (Tokasid) was a shining example of a concerned friend just like everyone else. Elviza's mum woke Elviza up in the middle of the night to pray for Azura. Elviza had only met my daughter twice and already they are like long lost friend. Raden Galoh called to extend her support. Rita Ho called all the way from USA hoping to talk to Azura but unfortunately Azura was in the hospital at that time. I can't mention everyone of you and all I can say is thank you Allah for letting me have you all as my friends.

22nd April 2008.
I received an early call from an unknown number. Who else but Pak Adib
who was inquiring about Azura's condition. Thank you Pak Adib. Whoever gave him my number, I must thank you too. My guess is Pak Idrus.
This will be my last update on this blog. I have found friends who would rally for me and my family to be very touching. To all of you, I am indebted to you.
If you need to know anything else please do not hesitate to email me mohdzawi@gmail.com or call me at 019 9125647 or 09 7903785. If there is anything that I can do to help others in the same predicament, I will do it willingly.
Assalamualaikum to all.
23rd April 2008
It was brought to my attention that there are many silent readers out there who had been praying for my daughters well being. Among them are my son Azuan's friends at Bank Negara KL. To them all, on behalf of Azura and the whole family, I would like to express my utmost gratitude and may Allah repay you for your prayers and show of kindness.

130 comments:

Has said...

Salam;

Small world.

I actually came into your blog via word search "pokok kapalterbang." When I typed in the word, I did not actually expect to find any result, cos I thought such plant from this so called cerita lama dah tak ada. Hope you don't mind me taking two of your photos.

Has.

Zawi said...

Has,
No problem. Go ahead and help yourself to any of my photos. It must be Allah's way of connecting us together. Thank you for visiting and asking for the photo.

Zabs said...

Salam Zawi,
Semoga berita baik yang akan diterima. InsyaAllah.

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Zawi said...

zabs,
InsyaAllah. Itu jua yang dipohon dariNya. Terima kasih.

zz said...

salam..buka minda juara

kc said...

i'm so sorry to hear about yr latest predicament. must be hard to swallow the facts. nevertheless, stay strong for yr daughter's sake. i'm just hopeful its only the 1st stage and treatable.

take care!

Zawi said...

kc,
Thanks for the encouragement. I will be strong. I will lead the fight against it. Cancer is is treatable via modern medicine. Hope it is still at the early stage. Only by Monday we can be assured of the stage.
Thanks again.

tokasid said...

Salam Pak Zawi:

Innalillahi wa inna ilahi roji'un.
I just read about the histopath result.

I am sure everyone is devastated with the result but rest assure, there are ways for the Gynae team to tackle this problem. By Monday when the result is more precise they will tell the plan of action.

The possibility is Azura might have to undergo A Radical hysterectomy. This is a delicate and long procedure( 7-8 hours) where the uterus,cervix,ovaries and surrounding lymphnodes will be removed. Most likely will be follow up by chemotherapy. It will be tedious for everyone.Azura and Jo needs to accept the reality of this situation fast.Of course there will be why her? questions asked.
Assure her that this is all but an ujian on faith from ALLAH not only to her but to all your family.
Tell her to be redha with this ujian.
(Maybe you can e-mail or call Raden on how she handles the situation)

I have seen a few Ca cervix when I was in the hospital. Most responded very well to the radical treatment. I am sure Azura will be the same.

My du'a for Azura.For her to be patient during this ordeal.may ALLAH provide her comfort and iman during this stormy phase of her life.Ameen.

Raden Galoh said...

Salam pak...
Heard about this news from Doc TA...and right away surfing the net to visit you here...

Am with you all...my heart goes to all of you. My do'a is with Azura and you all Pak zawi...

Sesungguhnya ketentuan ini memang berat. Allah sahaja Yang maha Mengetahui. PadaNya penuh kasih sayang yang melimpah ruah...Semoga ketabahan dan kekuatan Allah beri buat Azura dan keluarga. Ada hikmah hanya kita yang belum melihatnya.

Be strong Pak... salam to Azura and your wife. take care. *Hugs*

Akmal said...

Salaam,
I hope this wont break kak Azura down. You too.
I don't know what does it feels like having tumour in m body, but I do know what tumour sounds like when the one having it is people dear to us.
Just stay strong. My prayers with you and your family...

The Ancient Mariner said...

Pak Zawi,

Sorry to hear about this latest development. You need to be strong for this. Our prayers and best wishes always.

Mior Azhar said...

Pak Zawi,
Kami sekeluarga mendoakan kesihatan Azura. InsyaAllah, tak lama lagi sihat walafiat.

Nightwing said...

Helo Pak Zawi,

Sorry to hear about the result.

Ya...have to be positive and have the believe that this thing can be beaten.

May the good Lord bless you and your family.

Pi Bani said...

With the support of the whole family, I believe Azura is strong enough to fight. InsyaAllah.

awang said...

Salam Pak Zawi,
Be strong.
"Dengan(menyebut)nama ALLAH Tuhan Penyembuh.Wahai ALLAH,sembuhkanlah hamba engkau;dan telah benarlah Rasul Engkau."
Semoga berita baik yg akan diterima.Insyallah.

Zawi said...

Doc TA,
Thank Allah that modern technology had made it possible for you to read the report even from hundred of miles away. At least you can comprehend the severity of the situation.
We accept this as fate and no one is questioning why it has to be my daughter. If it could happen to thers why can't it happen to one of my own or even to myself?
We have complete faith in him to guide the surgeons in HUSM which will be led by Dr. Nik who is one of the finest in the field. I was told he is very meticulous in his job which is really necessary for an operation that may take some 7 to 8 hrs. Over such a long duration not many could take the strain.
Thank you Doc for making it clear for me and I will explain to Azura if she hadnt read this comment of yours herself.
Thank you Doc for letting Raden Galoh knows. She called me immediately after and spoke to Azura.

Zawi said...

Raden Galoh,
Thank you for talking to Azura. Words from someone facing the same predicament is ofcourse making her feel stronger and better able to face come what may.
From the bottom of my heart I thank you D.

Zawi said...

Akmal,
Of course she cried. She is only human. Even though she was expecting the worst, the confirmation was too much for her as she would ofcourse love to hear otherwise.
Thanks for the prayers Akmal.

Zawi said...

Captain,
It's Allah's will. Kami terima dengan redha. Thanks for the prayers captain.

Zawi said...

mior azhar,
Terima kasih atas doa saudara dan keluarga. Kami amat menghargainya.

Zawi said...

nightwing,
We know Ca can be beaten. God will help the doctors to help my daughter.
Thank you.

Zawi said...

Pi Bani,
InsyaAllah. We all are rooting for her. A stream of relatives kept coming to offer her hope. That is why I couldnt respond to all the comments here earlier.

Zabs said...

Salam Zawi,
Kami turut bersimpati atas apa yang berlaku. Hanya doa yang dapat kami panjatkan kepada Allah S.W.T, untuk Azura dan anda sekeluarga. Semoga Azura dan anda sekeluarga tabah menerima dugaan ini. Ameen

Zawi said...

Awang,
InsyaAllah. Doa tuan amat kami hargai.

Fauziah Ismail said...

Salam Pak Zawi
My latest posting was about a friend who not only had mastectomy but also a hysterectomy within months of each other.
I also wrote about my other half's brother, who is a cancer survivor.
Both "survived" their surgeries because of their positive outlook on things, among others.
Azura will have to do the same and she'll need all the support to get over this.
Cancer is no longer unbeatable.

cakapaje said...

Salam Pak Zawi,

Doc TA informed me of the news earlier today; bersabar, berusaha dan berdo'alah. Sesungguhnya tiada kuasa pada kita melainkan Dia Yang Maha Esa.

elviza said...

Dear Pak,

I got the shocking news from Dr TA. I am so sorry.

We are praying for you and Azura to go through this test with strength and conviction. InsyaAllah

Zawi said...

fauziah,
I will tell her to read your postings. She will benefit from it. How timely to have you post such things. Thank you so much.

Zawi said...

Shah,
All the positive thoughts yes. Prayers to Allah too cos it is Him that decides her to face this trial. Thank you my friend.

Zawi said...

Elviza,
Thank you. She will be strong knowing that we have friends willing her on. She will read this too.

Kerp (Ph.D) said...

salam Pak Z,

sama2 kita berdoa kepadaNya Azura akan tempuhi semua ujianNya degan penuh kekuatan dan semangat. dan InsyaAllah dengan berbekalkan kekuatan, Azura akan berjaya dalam perjuangan baru ini.

just FYI Pak zawi, my mom suffered from one more than 25 years ago and she survived with flying colors. and kak Dalilah (Raden Galoh) is another case in point. Bear in mind its NOT, and i'm positively sure never the end of everything. its only the beginning.

Salam buat puan and Azura.

sYaNa said...

Assalamualaiikum Pak Zawi

So sorry to hear the latest news. My prayers go out to you, your family and especially to Azura. I really hope its at an early stage and doctors can help cure it.

You and your family will get through this with lots of love and support.

Take care, Pak Zawi.

abanglong said...

salam pak...

ni kali kedua saya comments dlm yr blog, didoakan moga Azura and you all tabah menghadapi dugaan ini. My prayers to all of you.

Anonymous said...

Salam Pak Zawi,

We're sad and so sorry to hear about Azura's result.
Knowing Azura, a brave and strong woman insyallah she'll be able to go thro' it with strong support from her love one and family members. Pls tell Azura, We miss her and will always pray for her speedy recovery. Salam and hug for Azura from all of us..Take care..
Nik
o/b eChannel AffinBank

yeappie said...

Pak Zawi,
It's hard to find the right words to express how we feel. Our prayers are for Azura to stay strong and come through this with the best possible outcome.

Rita Ho said...

Zawi ... I am deeply saddened by the news and will continue to pray that Azura, you & your family remain strong. Although spiritual, I believe that science and mindset can work wonders in getting us through life medical challenges. It has been proven to me several times. Keep asking questions of the doctors to know options and carry out research to be abreast of Azura's progress and daily situation. As many have said, the battle can be won.

Please take care of your own health as well, Zawi.

jaflam said...

Salam Zawi,
Kami sekeluarga mendoakan agar Tuan, Azura dan keluarga diberi kekuatan untuk melalui dugaan Allah ini. Sesungguhnya setiap penyakit ada ubatnya dan InshaAllah Azura akan menemui penawar penyakitnya itu kerana kanser dewasa ini penyakit yang boleh diubati.

Zawi said...

kerp,
Citing the success of your mum from a similar encounter with Ca will definitely give Azura more confidence to face it herself.
Thank you again for your relentless effort to boost her morale.

Zawi said...

syana,
Thank you. It is support from friends including those whom we have not met or even interacted before is unprecedented in uplifting our spirit.
Our earlier hope that it would be benign tumour was dashed when it was confirmed to be malignat. Our next hope as is that it is at its early stage so that it can be treated. May Allah grant us this wish.

Zawi said...

abanglog,
Betapa besarnya hati ini mendapat komen kedua dari abanglong dalam keadaan yang begini rupa. Doa abnglong amat kami hargai dan semoga Allah akan merestuinya.

Zawi said...

Nik,
Terima kasih kerana sudi memberi berangsang kepada Azura dan kami sekeluarga. Doa rakan sekerja dari eChannel Affinbank amat dihargai. Azura sendiri membaca blog ini. Pastinya dia merasa gembira atas sokongan ini.
Sampaikan salam kami sekeluarga kepada semua rakan Azura di eChannel.

Zawi said...

yeappie,
We can understand how you feel. We would have felt the same way if another friend is facing a similar predicament. It is prayers from friends like you that is giving us hope. Let us hope God will grant us this request that the Ca is in its early stage.

Zawi said...

Rita,
The will to fight must come from within her and with our support it will give her more strength. Modern sciences does help too. We are lucky to have Hospital Umiversity Saims Malaysia in Kota Bharu as it has one of the best facilities and dedicated staff with the correct experties. Its God send really.
Thank you for your concern for my own health. I know I must not falter as the leader of my family.

Zawi said...

D Jaff,
InsyaAllah, akan kami tempuhi dengan tabah. Kami bersyukur perkembangan teknologi terkini memungkinkan apa yang tidak dapat diubati dahulu kini telah ditemui. kehadiran pakar-pakar perubatan yang terlatih dan berpengalaman memberi kami keyakinan bahawa yang terbaik akan diperolehi oleh anak kami.
Doa D Jaff sekeluarga akan diberkati Allah.

mokk said...

Salam Pak Zawi,

Semuga anak pak zawi cepat sembuh dan banyak-banyak bersabar..

zorro said...

Zawi:My family's prayers for Azura.
Get her to think positive. Everyone around her think POSITIVE.

Kata Tak Nak said...

Pak Zawi,
I am not writing this just to please you, it's just that I got this feeling that, though it would be a long, tedious and at times painful and frustrating process, she will come out triumphant, Insyaallah.

What strikes me most is your own strength. This helps a lot.

Has said...

Salam lagi,

Apabila saya sedang publish comment Zawi, saya dikunjungi oleh H dan suami, tertangguh, dan sekarang baru saya sedar bertapa ujian yang melanda keluarga En Zawi.

Dalilah ada number saya jika Azura ingin buat temujanji, kerana saya tidak boleh tentukan hari lagi kerana saya akan ke Sungai Petani, dan Ahad ini saya menemani suami untuk pemeriksaan colonscopy.

Moga Azura tabah dan bersemangat.

Zawi said...

mokk,
I believe this is your first comment on my site. Please allow me to welcome you.
Thank you for the nice words.

Zawi said...

zorro,
Thank you for the prayers. We will be strong and face it as best as we can. Thank you sir.

Zawi said...

Chegu,
Don't worry. We don't have any ulterior motives whatsoever so everything will be taken as it is.
I have to lead as I am the leader. Again I would say I am most fortunates to have cyber friends to will my daughter and myself on.
InsyaAllah all will be well.

Has said...

En Zawi:

First get this book, Cancer Cured Naturally by Betty L Khoo, as in my link:
http://bp1.blogger.com/_b4Oc4TgHkeo/R4rTE8QCjvI/AAAAAAAAARk/qEUr9y5lY4Q/s1600-h/CANCERCuredNaturally.jpg

Azura can get some motivation from there. There is one lady, Dee Page, advanced ca cervix, twice recurred and has been surviving more than 18 years.

Zawi said...

Has,
Terima kasih.
Azura akan masuk wad HUSM pada Sabtu ini untuk staging determination so i don't think we can go anywhere for the moemnt. Saya akan menghubungi Dalilah untuk mengatur temujanji dengan puan seterusnya.
InsyaAllah ia akan tabah.

Has said...

En Zawi,

Jika Azura masih dalam wad pada hari Isnin, saya akan pergi jumpa dia. Beritau wad mana.

Adakah anda sedar bahawa saya sendiri adalah seorang doktor di HUSM?

Sebab itu saya terkedu bila Zawi kata saya termasuk dalam blog Zawi kerana lebih dari kebetulan saja.

edelweiss said...

Pok Zawi,

Please read your email.

Thanks.

elviza said...

Pak,

Last night, I told my mom about Azura. She nodded and didn't say much at all.

Then at 4 am, she knocked on my door, suruh ambik air semayang and buat sembahyang hajat for Azura with her.

I told her, "Mama, her family surely thank you a lot"

She didn't say much at all, again. Well, that's mama.

I wanted to call you but I really need to be free to talk to you long. I am clearing the files on my desk right now and I call you real soon.

Take care now.

Berisman said...

Pak Zawi,
My do'a for your daughter and Allah's rahmah be showered on your family.

Pak Adib

Mohd Adib said...

Pak Zawi,
I have called my brother in law,Senior O&G at HUSM Dr Shukri and informed her about your daughter.Please feel free to contact him.
Pak Adib

lunacy said...

Dear Pak Zawi

am truly saddened by the news, my doa to Azura. She needs to stay strong since she still in confinement kan?

mamadou said...

Assalamu'alaikum Ayoh Awi

Pertamanya saya mendoakan agar Azura tabah menghadapinya dan diberikan oleh Allah kelapangan jiwa untuk menghadapi kejidupan hari ini dan selanjutnya di hari kemudian. Semuanya datang dari Allah. Saya boleh bayangkan tahap emosi yang menerima berita yang seumpama ini.

Moga dengan bantuan doa dan kepakaran perubatan masa kini serta rakan yang sudi memberikan sokongan, Azura boleh menjalani kehidupan biasa.

Terima kasih

Zawi said...

Has,
InyaAllah, Azura akan ketemu Dr. Nanti. Saya baca profile puan tapi tidak kelihatan sebrang indikator disana mengenai lokasi Doktor atau profession atau saya tidak teliti.
Maaf jua dipohon.

Hi&Lo said...

Salam Pak Zawi,

I came to know of this from Raden's blog. My prayers with your family.

Pak Zawi, tho am not very frequent in your blog, be assured you are very dear to me.

Azmy Omar said...

Assalamualaikum.

Awie.

Kita semua hambaNYA. Kita diminta bersabar bila menghadapi dugaan. Ikhtiar tetap dicari.

Don't worry too much. To AZURA and all of you; be strong! Ingat pada Allah banyak-banyak.

Memang ada ramai yang dapat mengatasi penyakit ini, dan dengan kemudahan yang lebih baik dan canggih sekarang, InsyaAllah dengan izin NYA, everything will be fine.

Amin.

mrs. lim said...

Good morning, Pak Zawi,

I have been busy and was away for a few days and to come back to this news which brings tears to my eyes.

Pak Zawi, I have heard of many encouraging testimonials in my church and I am sure there must be even more in every corner of the world.

I always believe that everyone of us has cancerous cells in our body in one form or another. When we are mentally and physically strong, they don't emerge.

Pak Zawi, please convey my best regards to Azura and please tell her to be strong and have confidence in God, in herself and the whole bunch of families, friends, supporters who care and concern about her...

Pak zawi, take good care of yourself too.

H J Angus said...

zawi
Sorry to hear the news about Azura.
At first I thought the growth was one of those cysts that were activated during the pregnancy. My wife's friend had one almost the size of the baby.

My prayers are for you and the family. I hope Azura's operation will be successful.

Contrary to public perception, government hospitals are very well-equipped and staff are highly trained. Only maybe overworked.

Take care of yourself and the family will pull through this crisis.

CJay said...

Pak Zawi,

Berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul. My salam to Zura and Jo. My wife was diagnosed with Osteosarcama in 1989. Chances of survival max 5 years. We were young, just started a family and blessed with 3 small boys. No tears in my eyes but sorrow.. deep in my heart. As for her... till no tears. Many can say but only those who suffer and the immediate family know the feeling. Pak Wi and Jo, give all you can. Usaha. And the most important is for us to go back to ALLAH through sembahyang hajat, istikharah and doa. I never intend to be takkabur. My wife lost her left limb but is still with me. And ALLAH bless us with another boy age 8 now. My prayer to you all..

lung said...

I believe in the positive & I believe Azura will be all right.

Be strong & all will be well.

Zawi said...

edelweiss,
Can't locate your email. Can you resend? Or was it under a different name that I couldnt recognize you? Sorry to inconvenience you.

Zawi said...

Elviza,
That was very touching. Your mum went all the way to help someone that she doesn't even know.
Its maternal instint I guess.
Tried to talk to you on the phone to say thank you but I guess such a time was a busy time for you.
Please convey my salam to your mum.

Zawi said...

Berisman,
Thanks for the doa. Your bro in law Dr. Ahmad Shukri helped us to get the report to Dr. TA. Thanks for letting us know of him.

Zawi said...

Pak Adib,
Azura will be admitted for the staging process this Saturday 21st April. I will see him personally. Thank you for the help. He has been helping us already by letting Dr. TA have that report.

Zawi said...

lunacy,
Yes she is still in confinement. The fact that she deliverd her baby by cesarian made it necessary for her to wait another 6 weeks from the date of the op before the Ca can be removed.
Thank you.

Zawi said...

mamadou,
Walaikummussalam. Apa khabar di Mali? Harapnya baik jua.
Kami terima dugaan Allah kepada kami. InsyaAllah Azura akan kuat untuk menempuh dugaan. Terima kasih kepada Mohamad yang walaupun kita kenali melalui alam siber, terasa amat keakrabannya.

Zawi said...

hi&lo,
It matters not how often you come to my blog. What matters is we are friends.
Thanks to Raden for letting you know.
Thanks for the prayers.

Zawi said...

Tuan Haji Azmy Omar,
Terima kasih kerana mengingatkan kami akan kebesaran Allah. Kita perlu redha dengan cubaanNya. Cancer bukan lagi suatu penyakit yang tidak boleh diubati.
InsyaAllah Azura akan diiznkanNya untuk sembuh darinya.

Zawi said...

Mrs. Lim,
Thank you for the visit and the encouraging words.
Our level of antibodies differ in everyone of us so in those with less defence, the cancer cells emerge from its cocoon.
Don't worry with your support and prayers, we will be strong.

Zawi said...

h j angus,
We were hoping the tumour would be benign since my daughter had been doing regular pap smear tests and the last one ddn't show anything.
The recent childbirth helped the doctors detect the tumour that lead to subsequent tests, otherwise the malignant tumour would have gone unnoticed.
We will be strong. More so with all of you supporting us.

Zawi said...

cjay,
Being your first comment here I would like to welcome you to my humble site.
Semoga Allah akan menjauhi kami sekeluarga dari Takkabur. Kami sentiasa mengingatinya. Sememangnya benar bahwa bahu yang memikul itu adalah lebih berat dari segalanya. Anda sendiri telah mengalaminya.
Bagi kami sekeluarga ini adalah kali kedua kami menghadapi cubaan yang berat ini. Kali pertamaialah semasa anak lelaki kedua saya Azuan yang mengalami kemalangan yang terpaksa dibuat pembedahan otak. Dengan izinNya Azuan telah sembuh dan telahpun berumah tangga.
Kami sentiasa bersyukur dan redha atas apa jua dugaannya.

Zawi said...

lung,
We will try to be positive. It seems to be the better way than to feel defeated about it.
Thanks for making your first comment on my blog.

Hi&Lo said...

Pak Zawi,

Thaks for accepting me as your friend. It's a great privilege.

You are so rich in humanity. your last entry on the birds in your garden touched me.

Your greatest strength is your kindness. This is your gift with a touch of godliness. How do we know God is good if not by the kindness we meet in ordinary lives.

About Azurah, please tell her to turn the crisis into an opportunity. I don't know how but see this as a test of seeing God's greatness. Ask Him to prove great things to her.

God is great. He makes everything beautiful in His time. When we are perplexed, faith does not come naturally. Perhaps by praising Him for little things, our faith may build up.

Zawi said...

hi&lo,
Welcome back.
I am so happy you enjoyed The Bird. The parents are back building another nest. This time the location is very safe but not suitable as its in the lamp shade of my porch light which is held like a pendant. My wife doesn't seem to like it as the materials from making the nest is littering the floor. I ganged up with the grandchildren to convince their grandma to let the bird carry on and not chase it away. Afterall its just a temporary nest. They will leave the nest once the new chick attains the size and strength to faly away.
If we succeed, it will be a great feeling to see new bird chicks being hatched and flying away from the nest.
Life is sacred even for birds. Whatmore if its your own flesh and blood. We will be strong to fight and attain success in fighting the dreaded Ca.
Take care.

anasalwa said...

I'm praying and doa for Azura. We are far apart but love and caring will bring all us together.

Zawi said...

Ana,
Thank you for the prayers. The blogging has brought the people of the world together. How wonderful it is to have complete strangers becoming caring friends.
Take care.

silversarina said...

salam,

I kerap juga ke mari as a silent reader.

Doa saya iringi agar Azura tabah mengharungi segala dugaan ini. Segala sesuatu itu adalah ketentuan dari NYA jua.

Salam buat azura.

Zawi said...

silversarina,
Walaupun silversarina kerap mengunjung ke blogsite saya, ini adala kali pertama anda membuat komen. Saya mengucapkan selamat berkunjung.
Semoga doa anda akan diberkati Allah.
Salam Silvesarina telah saya sampaikan dan Azura mengucapkan terima kasih.

pakpayne said...

pak zawi...saya dan isteri mengucapkan doa buat azura dan juga keluarga pakzawi...
berat mata kami memandang tentu nya tak sama dengan apa yg di lalui keluarga pakzawi.

hanya doa....dari kami.

pakpayne

Hantu Laut said...

Zawi,

Sorry to hear about your daughter.I hope by Allah's will she will recover.My prayers with you and your family.

Zawi said...

pakpayne,
Kami terima bahawa segala yang berlaku adalah atas kehendakNya. Setiap yang berlaku ada hikmahnya. Semoga pengalaman kami ini akan membantu mereka-mereka yang mungkin akan menghadapinya di hari muka.
Terima kasih atas doa pakpayne sekeluarga.

Zawi said...

hantu laut,
With your prayers, we hope Allah will answer and make her well again. Thanks for the prayers.

kbguy said...

I am so sorry to hear that. But everyone have to be strong and the courage to fight with it. My mom had cancer when I was 11. My sis had cancer too.

Zawi said...

kbguy,
You had more problems than me. I am sorry to hear that. Did your mum and sister survived the cancer?
Today my daughter had another check at HUSM and the doctors found the tumour to have shrunk and no more bleeding. I guess the many alternative medications she had during the confinement must have helped her.

Hi&Lo said...

Pak Zawi,

Glad of your updates. We must continue to pray for Azurah and her doctors to implement the right therapy and action.

maria a samad (kak ton) said...

Dear Zawi,

I am very sorry to hear the latest development on Azura.

My prayers are with you and your family.

I know how you're going through. I've been there. Believe me. Just stay strong.

LadyZ said...

Salam,
I've been following your updates on Azura. Don't know what to say, only my prayers for her and your family. I hope she had read the email I sent earlier.
LadyZ

Zawi said...

hi&lo,
Wonderful thing has been happening since the first time the tumour was detected. The decrease in size and chnge in color from reddish to yellow are positive sign. Let see how the doctors will recconmend.
Thanks for the revisit.

Zawi said...

kak ton,
Please don't feel so bad. We are in high spirit now since we heard the tumour is responding to treatment with alternative medicines.
We are hopeful that the Ca can be beaten. Cheer up please.

Zawi said...

ladyz,
I will check with her if she had received your email. If she did, I will make sure that she responded to your email as to say thank you to well wishers is the least she could do in return.
On her behalf I would like to say thank you to you for writing her the email.

LadyZ said...

Zawi, ada misunderstanding here. I was referring to the email I sent to you earlier, it was about my sister who had a similar case like hers. I didn't write to her directly.
Salam. LadyZ

sYaNa said...

Alhamdulillah! There are positive signs :o) I'm so glad to read that the tumour's size has shrinked due to treatment. I hope & pray for more positive results.

Take care, Pak Zawi :o)

Zawi said...

ladyz,
OK I got it. Thanks for the clarification.

Zawi said...

syana,
Alhamdulillah. We were expecting for miracles. This seems like one of it. She had been taking Luxor jelly gamat and Lifestyle's Intra religiously since the day we know of tha Ca. They were meant to heal the wound of the caesarian op but seems to have an effect on the tunour as well. Now it will be more for the Ca treatment since the ceasarian wound has healed.
Another friend has a neice with an advance case of cervical cancer. It was already too advanced for any operation. I told her to get those medication for her neice to take. At the moment her neice is getting expensive treatment at Assunta Hospital. Who knows Azuta's experience may help her too.

Has said...

En Zawi,

Saya dah bertemu dengan Azura. Jika Zawi kenal dan boleh dapat strobilanthes crispus dan clinacanthus nutans, eloklah tanam pokok-pokok itu dulu. Standby, sebab bila pokok-pokok tu dah biak, boleh digunakan oleh Azura sebagai sebahagian dari resipinya untuk self healing.

Zawi said...

Dr. Has,
Terima kasih kerana menemui Azura. Dia baru saja telefon saya mengenai lawatan Dr. Has.
Saya akan berusaha untuk mencari pokok tersebut dan saya yakin my blogger friend who is involved in the analysis of such herbs will be able to assist me to locate the plant. Thank you doc.

Zawi said...

Ladyz,
Can you identify the local names or ordinary names of these plants as mentioned by Dr. Has above?

strobilanthes crispus dan clinacanthus nutans
Would be too glad if you could.

Fauziah Ismail said...

Salam Pak Zawi
Doctors also believe in alternative medicine. I know of doctors who prescribed alternative medication on top of the normal/conventional medicine.
I'm happy to note of Azura's progress. My salam to her.

Zawi said...

Fauziah,
Its the same active ingredient that will ultimately do the cure, the only thing is the alternative medicine provide the ingredient in its natural state whereas modern medicine synthesize the a.i and either make ito tablets, liquid or other medium that can be introduced into our body by injection.
By the way Has is a medical doctor herself and currently working in USM. I am most fortunate to have known her through this blogsite. So you dont have to go too far to find a doctor who believes in alternative medicine.Please visit her blosite for more info.
http://yourexcellencythehas.blogspot.com/

Akmal said...

Salaam,
Alhamdulillah, that is indeed a good news.
Cells usually reduced in size because of the reduction of water content. I don't know about other reason, but whatever it is, this is indeed a good sign.

Zawi said...

Akmal'
Today they will do the staging. Infact it should be done by now. I will be seeing her at 5 pm n get more details. The fact that the tumour did not increase in size is a good sign. I will update this blog after hearing from her later.

Gurindam Jiwa said...

Assalamu'alaikum Tuan,

I'll be at HUSM this Saturday, insya'Allah, kalau tak de apa aral.

Can we get in touch?

Wassalaam.

cekmi said...

masyallah. what a way to be tested.

i am so moved with the latest development in ur family, pak zawi. i wish to expect an encouraging result soon.

insyaAllah.

Zawi said...

gurindam jiwa,
Waalaikummussalam.
No problem to get intouch. My number is 019 9125647. Just SMS me and I will get to you.

Zawi said...

cekmi,
The result is very encouraging. Please read my latest update. I will rewrite the update tomorrow as this will be the final update. I am too tired do it tonite.
Thanks for the concern.

LadyZ said...

Zawi,
Local name for Strobilanthes crispus is pecah kaca, pecah beling or jin batu. It is traditionally used for the treatment of cancer, diabetes and renal stones. Coincidentally we have this plant growing at our backyard. As for clinacanthus nutans, I can't get its local name, but you can have a look at this site for the images.
http://toptropicals.com/catalog/uid/clinacanthus_nutans.htm

LadyZ

Zawi said...

ladyz,
Thank you. I know I can count on you.

Azmy Omar said...

Awie,

Alhamdulillah.

The latest development shows that she WILL be out of danger. InsyaALLAH.

Faith is the word. Have faith and you can face all the challenges of life. Dengan izinNYA, Azura will be back to normal in not time.

Will continue to pray for her. Don't worry. She will be ok.

Amin

Raden Galoh said...

Allahu Akbar! Alhamdullilah, indeed it is He who can change the impossible. Mengalir airmata kesyukuran sya Pak bila mendengar the news from you over the phone...Allah perkenan sume doa2 kita yang jauh dan dekat...SubhanaAllah....rasa kerdilnya diri dengan kekuasaanNya...

I'm just thankfull to you for sharing every news, milestones with us...

Take care all and my sisterly hug to Azura...

Zawi said...

Tuan Haji Azmy,
Thank you for following the story. I am most thankful to Allah. Alah wanted to test all. I am also thankful to all my friends. Like you, my friends have been praying for her.
She is not out of the wood yet but we can already see a path out of the wood. AllahuAkbar.

Zawi said...

Raden,
Can't help it but I felt I need to call you and share the good news with you. Remember you were the first to call when you heard the news.
AllahhuAkbar. He was testing us. I am most grateful to Him.
I wil convey your salam to her ASAP.

tokasid said...

Salam Pak Zawi:

Subhanallah!Alhamdulillah!Allahuakbar!

I was suprised when you sms me few days ago about the size reduction and colour change of the lesion. I was unable to read your update as I was in taiping over the weekend.
This morning I read your message in my blog and soon after that Raden gave me a call telling me the findings and she had spoken to you. We are so happy with the latest development.It is very positive and I am sure Azura is the happiest person on earth .
This is indeed a miracle. Logically speaking Ca Cervix doesn't regress like this.I am hoping the next biopsy wil be positive and if there is to be any op, let us doa that its just confined to the cervix and not the whole set.

I am so happy for Azurah,Jo,Pak Zawi, Mrs PZ dan the cucus(anak2 Azurah)and when Raden spoke to me I can hear the excitement and relieve in her voice and I am sure she was smiling with tears rolling down her cheeks gratitute to ALLAH with this good news.
Alhamdulillah.ALLAHUAKBAR!

My salam to Azurah and the rest of your family Pak.

Azura said...

Dear All,
I can't thank you enough for the concern and pray for my health. I am indeed a bit relief with the finding but you can never tell what will happen next. I just hope for the best but whatever happen, there is always ade hikmahnya.....tq once again.....my spirit never change......

Zawi said...

Doc,
I am lost for words and let the words from Azura speak on our behalf. Thank you brother, hard times sometimes the best in us. This is one of the time. AllahuAkbar.

Pi Bani said...

Alhamdulillah. Heard the latest update from Dalilah during MRT today. So happy for Azura and the whole family!

Zawi said...

Pi,
Alhamdulillah. Allah just answered our prayers. It is a big load off my shoulder and my mind. It akes the family feel closer too.
Thanks for the visit Pi.

sYaNa said...

Alhamdulillah :o) Alhamdulillah!

Let's keep on praying for the best. Keep doing all that you are doing, Azura, because it seems to work + prayers and tawakkal.

Altho I am far from home right now, I am glad to be able to know of the latest development.

Take care, Azura, Pak Zawi & family :o)

Zawi said...

Syana,
Alhamdulillah. Allahuakbar.
Hopefully more people can learn from Azura's experience. Please note that pap smear if not well done may not show the onset of cancer. Luckily her pregnancy to Aqil gave her a chance to detect the cancer early. The stage intially determined for Azura was
1B1 (One B one).
Thanks for the continued prayers syana.

Queen Of The House said...

ALHAMDULILLAH! ALLAHUAKBAR!!
Such is the power of prayers. Such is the strength of our Maker. I hope Azura will only hear good news from now on.

Fauziah Ismail said...

Salam Pak Zawi
I was in Terengganu and reading your updates but could not post a comment.
Syukur Alhamdulillah, good to know of the good news.
Please convey my salam to Azura.

Zawi said...

queen,
We will have to accept whatever Allah wills on us. He has chosen to grant us this request via our prayers and so we are most thankful to him.
InsyaAllah only the good news will be forthcoming.

Zawi said...

Fauziah,
We are all overjoyed by the good turn of fortune. It is alright if you cant post any comment as I know you are always praying for her.
I will ask her to read your comment herself as that will have the most heartwarming effect on her.